What's next on 2010?

2009... New Year... New Dreams need to be fulfilled... I'd made some and believe that God will help me finding the way to achieve them...as long as I keep struggling and fighting. These are my objectives of the year:
1. Graduating from college
2. Traveling abroad at least once
3. Finding out what I want to do in the future for living.
Hopefully by the end of this year, those will be already accomplished...Crossing my fingers!

On the 1st of January 2009, I wrote the above entry and you know what? None of them I had accomplished in 2009. However, I think this year, I can and I surely will. In fact... I can check the first one out of the list, because finally... after that pretty damn (too) long period of college, I graduated some days ago. So it left me with the other two, traveling abroad and job. Well, it's still March and I think I already on my way to get them or at least one of them, so I think this year is gonna be great. Just wait for my next entries, maybe I'm gonna add the list more... So exciting! 

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...Buon Natale...
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...Feliz Navidad...
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...Merry Christmas...
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...Selamat Hari Natal...

A Letter to Tuhan (part 2)

Terima kasih banyak Tuhan... Atas begitu banyak bantuan yang selalu diberikan. Terima kasih. Ini semua berkah dari Mu.

at 02.52 am at home and finally have finished the final report

Italia, 2004 (2a Parte)

At a bus station, waiting with other AFS students to go to our very 1st orientation camp in Alghero, Sardinia. It was in October 2003.

*the photo is courtesy of Anadel Rodriguez (Dominican Republic). Grazie!

Italia, 2004 (1a Parte)

Thinking of writing something about my experience when I was in Italy, but I know I don't have much time now, so I just uploaded this photo. This is when I was in Ivrea, Piedmont (Piemonte, in italian) after getting the second place on a photography competition. I decided to do a traditional dance, so I brought all the stuff and then... there I was, with the two photos I took that had brought me to Ivrea and of course, dressed in Indonesian traditional dancing costume =)

The L.A.M.B.

While I was working on my internship report or laporan magang in bahasa few days ago, I found a good short form of its name. The L.A.M.B. or... Laporan Akhir Magang B....... (Fill in the blank as your mood mode). It could be "bagus", or "baik", or "bermakna", but anytime my relationship with it gets worse, my mood gets worse too and surely you know I can make that B... into something even "better"... hahahhahaha. Yeah, whatever!

Well, well, well. I just need to put a little bit more strength to finish this hard-to-bite lamb chop. Forza!

at 23.14 pm at home and still finishing the final report

My Letter to Tuhan (Part 1)

Dear Tuhan,

Apa kabar hari ini Tuhan??? Aku yakin selalu baik... Aku percaya itu.

Tuhan yang selalu baik, sudah lama aku ingin menulis surat ini kepada Tuhan. Tapi baru sekarang aku sempatkan, karena hari ini Tuhan telah, sekali lagi dan untuk kesekian kalinya, menyadarkan aku pada indahnya bersujud dan berserah pada Mu, bersandar pada Mu. Pada damainya berpelukan dengan sajadah Mu. Pada hangatnya bercengkerama dengan diri Mu.

Tuhan, jangan pernah tinggalkan diri ini. Tolong. Genggam terus tangan ini. Tolong.

Ah Tuhan, terima kasih untuk semua ini... Rasa ini, air mata ini, cobaan... Bukan! Jalan menuju kebahagiaan ini. Ya, itu dia. untuk jalan menuju yang terbaik ini. Terima kasih.

at 22.35 pm at home and while finishing the final report

"When You Love Someone" by Endah N Rhesa

Saturday, November 7 2009

Aku + Dirinya = Beku, Kaku, Kosong, Hampa, Diam, semua yang mendung

Tapi mendengar suatu lagu indah dari Endah N’ Rhesa yang begitu…diriku. Layaknya lagu ini diciptakan untuk keadaan saat ini.

I love you but it's not so easy to make you here with me

I wanna touch and hold you forever

But you're still in my dream

I can't stand to wait till' night is coming to my life

I still have a time to break a silence

When you love someone

Just be brave to say

That you want him to be with you

When you hold your love

Don't ever let it go

Or you will lose your chance to make your dreams come true

I used to hide and watch you from a distance

And I knew you realized

I was looking for a time to get closer at least to say hello

And I can't stand to wait your love is coming to my life

When you love someone

Just be brave to say

That you want him to be with you

When you hold your love

Don't ever let it go

Or you will lose your chance to make your dreams come true

And I never thought that I'm so strong

I stuck on you and wait so long

But when love comes, it can't be wrong

Don't ever give up

Just try and try to get what you want

Coz love will find the way

When you love someone

Just be brave to say

That you want him to be with you

When you hold your love

Don't ever let it go

Or you will lose your chance to make your dreams come true

When you love someone

That you want him to be with you

When you hold your love

Don't ever let it go

Or you will lose your chance to make your dreams come true

Ketika cinta datang, itu tidak akan pernah salah. Karena cinta itu anugerah. Karena itu sudah di luar kuasa manusia. Yang ada cukup pasrah, tapi jangan menyerah. Ikuti saja terus permainan selanjutnya. Percaya! bahwa semua itu indah pada waktunya.

A week full of inspirations

Sunday, October 18 2009

Mengalami minggu yang penuh dengan petunjuk dan inspirasi. Dari teman - teman seangkatan AFS 2004. Ninit, Titis, Meza. Justru di minggu dimana dibutuhkan begitu banyak petunjuk, karena di minggu yang sama keputusan besar sudah diambil berdasarkan sebuah keyakinan kuat yang datang di pagi hari ketika bangun dari tidur. Ninit bilang, “when you do an extreme way, you’ll get an extreme result”. Terus kalo kata Titis, “Why do you have the rush when you have the rest of your life?”. Sedangkan Meza bercerita tentang orang tua nya yang mendasarkan keputusan penting atas perasaan mereka masing – masing dari sholat dan sholat. Berserah pada keputusan Allah. Kalaupun takdir tidak bisa menyatukan, setidaknya itu adalah keputusan dari Tuhan, bukan keputusan labil dari diri ini. Setidaknya itu sudah yang terbaik menurut Tuhan, yang Maha Mengetahui segala - galanya.

Happy 30th Wedding Anniversary to my mom and dad

Two weeks ago, as of Feb 11^th 2009, our family celebrated my parents’ 30^th wedding anniversary…WOW, 30 years of being together. My parents have been through so many rocky roads and they are still like when they were just married (at least that’s what they told me…hahhahahaa! Of course I do believe them. They’re my parents after all). The funniest thing of the night was that my father gave my mom a pair of home – made slipper which he found accidentally on our way back home after looking over my sister’s wedding venue as the ANNIVERSARY GIFT and what came more surprisingly was that those cost only IDR 3000/pair. What a laugh! However, my mom was very happy either way, because she always knows… and we all do that my father never do even give gifts, so those were still meant something to her. We enjoyed the occasion with great foods and lots of laugh at our own 20-year-old warm house.

Happy 30^th Wedding Anniversary, Mama! Papa! I love you both so deeply much. Thank you for always loving each other which has been making our house as a truly home for us.

The 3000 rupiah/pair home - made slipper